PERFECT BODY? OVER WEIGHT?

Advertisements all around the world with girls “perfect bodies” on it. Even advertisements are trying to show the importance of having a “perfect body.” I think that this is very wrong because everybody is different. Not every girl is going to have a “perfect body.” Girls sometimes have bad thoughts and some are suicidal because of the pressure of having a “perfect body.” Girls are pressured to lose weight and they are sometimes even made fun of because of being overweight. Sometimes it’s not the girl’s fault if she is overweight because it could be that her parents are overweight and they made her eat a lot of food and maybe even junk food. Advertisements are for products thats why they shouldn't advertise on losing weight.

According to The New York Times, these types of advertisements are on subways and busses. Some of the advertisements have pictures of girls from different races and quotes saying, “I’m beautiful the way I am.” This is a kind of motivational ad because it gives the message that no one is perfect and that everybody should be happy with what they have. Ads are a huge deal because lots of people see them. They should have good things like the one about loving your body the way it is, not like the one about having to lose weight.

City Of Love - PARIS

In the fall of 2010, Lily was boarding a transit train heading to Paris. It had always been a dream of hers to go there, but she never thought in a million years that it would be so soon. As she was reading Robert Cormier's The Chocolate War, a man approached her and tapped her on the shoulder.

"Excuse me miss, is that seat taken?" he said.

His finger was pointed to the empty seat next to hers, blocking her view of the book. Annoyed, she answered with a hint of anger in her voice but did not look up as she did not want to take her eyes off the book.

"What?"

"I said, is that seat taken?"

She looked up to the man and was left in a state of awe, as if she had never seen anybody like him before. Brown hair with a tint of auburn, green eyes that pierced through her skull when he stared at her and a smile that made Ryan Seacrest's grin resembled that of a two year old's undeveloped smile.

"Uh, no," was the only two words she could say. It was obvious that she was a little flustered by his presence beside her. 

As he made his way to the empty seat beside her, the camera that was hanging on his neck made unexpected contact with her forehead.

"Ow! Hey, watch it!" she yelled. The sharp pain to her forehead made her raise her voice at him.

"Oh my, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to. I guess my mum was right about me," he said in a sombre voice.

She was puzzled by his statement. With her hand touching her forehead, looking for any signs of swelling, she asked, "Right about what?"

"She said one day, I would be the reason a person has to be sent to the hospital," he explained.

She couldn't help but giggle at his response. Must be a mummy's boy, she thought.

"Well, I'm Lily. Nice to meet you,"

"Hi, I'm Colin. Sorry I hit you in the head with my camera. Wasn't my intention, honest!"

He tried to explain himself, but there was no need for an apology, as she started to grow fondof him. He was of her too, but neither one of them made a move. Lily was a student from Malaysia and Colin was a backpacker from London. They both bonded on the train heading to Paris, as if they were old friends reunited. Since neither one of them knew anybody there, they decided to make it easier for the both of them and explore the city together. As they reached Paris, they got off the train and promised to meet again in the morning. They both got into their taxis and went to their respective hotels, anticipating the week they will spend together in the beautiful city.

Over the course of five days, they have explored the city through and through. It was as if they planned to travel to the 'City of Love' together as lovers, not random strangers who met on the same train. Colin couldn't help but question his feelings towards Lily; feelings that he never thought he had. He knew he had developed strong feelings for her, mainly because of her carefree and outgoing personality. It's as if she has no care in the world, he thought. Every time she laughed, he would smile and stare at her like she was the most beautiful thing he had ever laid his eyes on.

On the fifth night during a stroll around the city, they found themselves under the brightly lit Eiffel Tower standing tall above them. He knew this would be the right time to confess his feelings for her.

"Hey Lily, I know we've only known each other for a couple of days, but I can't help but think that you're the best person I've ever known, and I-- uhh,"

He chocked.

"You what?" She wondered, as she nudged his hand to quicken a response.

"I think I'm in love with you. Your eyes, your smile. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. You make me feel as if I don't have to have a care in the world, as long as I'm with the one I love. I love you, Lily. There, I said it. And to think that I met you on a random train, "

She froze. Her face quickly changed. That was not the reaction he wanted to see from her.

"I can't fall in love with you. I'm so sorry to have led you on, Colin. I never wanted anybody to get hurt," she mumbled.

"Well, can I know why? At least give me closure, so I wouldn't beat myself up too much," he said.

He could see the tears in her eyes. Her eyes started to transform into two pools of water, and the glimmer started to crawl down her cheeks. She broke down.

"I'm not going to be here for much longer. I'm going, Colin. Going. Gone, into oblivion. I have only days, if I'm lucky, maybe months. That's why I'm here in Paris. At least before I die, I want the streets of Paris to be the last thing that I see. But then, you happened. And I-- what I'm trying to say is that I'm not going to live, and I know if you fall in love with me, I'm going to have to leave you soon. I don't want to leave you here hanging. I never planned for this. I never wanted for this to happen to me. To you, especially you. I'm so sorry, Colin. I really am," she cried.

"Hey, you know I'm never going to leave you. I love you so much. I don't care that I've only known you for a week, I promise you that the next few days we spend together will be the best moment you'll ever have. As long as you're still here, I'm not letting you go. I promise, Lily. I'm not letting you go,"

Although those words came out of his mouth, deep inside he felt lost to know that she will be gone soon. He knew the week he spent in Paris with her was the best thing that has ever happened to him, and he wanted her cancer to be the last thing she'll remembers when she's going. Over the next two days, they spent every waking moment with each other, knowing that they will never get that chance again. They were now lovers in the 'City of Love'.

On the last day of the trip, they made their way to the train station together and waited. Waited for the train that would part them. While waiting for the train, they gaze into each others eyes and had the same exact look in their eyes. They knew exactly what the other was thinking. They laughed, and their hands were now intertwined as one. They walked slowly towards the railway and laid down in each other's embrace. They knew that they couldn't possibly live without each other.

"To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die," she said, with a smile on her face.

They could now hear the sound of the train that was going to be their demise. It's coming. It's getting closer and closer. As the train was just seconds away from stealing their existence, they looked at each other and smiled meaningfully.

３０.０６.１４

你永远不会知道，你那种忽冷忽热的态度多伤人。

相识多年的我们今天却一句话也都说不出　这是到底为什么　?

我得罪你哪根毛了小姐?　我得罪你男朋友哪根葱了?　

在学校话也不说正眼都不看对方一眼这到底是什么回事　?

脑里充满疑问...心中充满痛恨...

男朋友大完吗???　　　

难道你以后的日子都是靠男朋友?请问你男朋友什么料?保得了你一世?

对　,　家世可能可以但他思想像个小孩子那样幼不幼稚点呢?

成熟点吧孩子..　

“人生不是谁没有了谁就不得了的”　听过这话吗?

你说你男朋友没了你可能会想不开自杀。

我只能劝告你说这种人很危险啊..万一他真的想不开自杀那你就是杀人凶手了吧?

别以为没了一个男人你就没了全世界,也别人为你男友没了你也不行好吗?

你认为他现在对你说的承诺是一辈子的吗?

还没走入红地毯，进入神的圣殿别以为你会跟这男人一辈子好吗拜托

我没想过你可以为了一个男人放弃你的身边的“朋友”。

或许你没把我们当是朋友吧？

也难怪....你这种人根本不配有朋友。

你再不改你的性格以后出了社会你真的会没朋友。

算了吧。

每次假装和好了但是心里还是很不甘愿　为什么?

你有没有想过我的感受　?

就算没吵架你也对人家爱理不理..这是你对朋友的表现吗　?

你要记得你不喜欢的人也未必喜欢你，你喜欢的人也未必他们也喜欢你。

女孩，请你学会坚强。

不要轻易落泪，就算难过，请一个人哭泣，不要找人倾诉，不要用眼泪去博取同情，因为这个世界上，同情是一种多余的东西，别让你的悲伤被人误读成懦弱。对于伤害，淡笑付之。从中吸取教训，不再被伤害第二次，这样就足够了。不要一遍遍抚摸伤口，否则会变成一道丑陋的疤。时间自然会抚平一切痕迹，不要在逝去的时间里沉溺、过多浪费你的感情。

女孩，请你学会自尊。

你可以倾慕一个男孩是欣赏他的相貌，但请你不要像花痴一样的到处宣传，也许被男孩听到他会高兴，但他仅仅是为那句夸赞的话而高兴，对于话的主人，不会在意，甚至，鄙夷。真的想赞美他，说给他一个人听，足够。你可以很爱很爱一个人，但请你不要丢了自己，别为他而活，留一份尊严给自己。这个世界上，能够永远爱你的人，只有你自己。不要爱上别人的人，别妄想用自尊换取他，这赌局，输的是自尊，而你输不起。

女孩，请你尊重别人。

就算你光芒耀眼，不乏追求者，也请你一次只爱一个人。并且，请你勇于承认你的感情，不要让别人的等待无限期搁浅，更不要作为你炫耀的资本，别人的自尊，是你无法承受之重。对于别人的出丑，请你不要笑。就算真的好笑，所有人都笑了，也请你不要笑。这是对人的一种最起码的尊重，哪怕他是你最讨厌的人，也不要去嘲笑他，用光明正大的手段回击他，不要在暗地里伤害别人。

女孩，请你节制自己。

对于别人送的东西，尽量不要。并且，永远不要向别人索要什么。没有谁有义务向你奉献什么，哪怕仅仅是一块你喜欢的巧克力，请你自己去买，不要开口索要。一切想要的东西，请通过努力获得。一个女孩嘴馋，是她学坏的第一步。如果爱，请默爱。做一株向日葵，即使在夜里，也默默的坚持。爱不要轻易说出口，更不要向所有人宣布你的爱，它是一种承诺，不是广告，不是宣传片。

Friend ?

Yeaaaa ! 又上来部落了 :D

Hmmm , 恩啦又是伤心所以才上来写下心情的啦 ~

题目是 : 朋友 , 但你觉得我有吗 ?

嗯 , 我有朋友 , 问题在于他们是否对我真心 ?

这个问题令我困扰很久 ... 

我发现 , 每个人都在比赛 . 比来比去 , 很累人你不觉得吗 ?

我身边朋友不多 , 真心的也没几个 。

跟你相似多年，最近才认清你了。

很伤心真的 。

我一直以为你很大方体贴又温柔 。

的确没错，但这些都会是像男生表现的罢了。

我最近发现你越来越自私，或许是有了男朋友的关系吧。

今天洗澡的时候我在想 ,, 每次我没来上课或去补习班的时候你都不会把笔记或功课交给我而当你没来补习或是上课的时候我却一厢情愿的把笔记借给你把功课让你抄。

可是为什么我“一厢情愿”的让给你可你却没有想过要借给我。

你知道原因吗 ? 因为我把你当朋友 .. 我想你好，也想和你分享。

可你呢 ?

上个星期五我没去补习班 问你借了笔记你却找借口说笔记不在你那儿不能给我 没关系。

其他朋友问我借补习班的笔记，我借了给他们。

你说我很笨也不应该。因为他们没有和我们一起补习所以不用借给他们。

虽然愚蠢但是就因为我把他们当朋友所以我才这么做。到后来得到的是你的辱骂。

我好伤心... 

其实你真的很自私

当我在网上看到这些的时候我真的哭了 ，而且 两次都是因为你 , 我的朋友 而哭的

我的心很脆弱 , 谁对我好 我就对谁好 ，谁对我不好 我却傻傻的藏在心里不说

OK 我承认我是 irresponsible but 请问你可以体谅一下人吗 ?
你是家里最小的 , 我是家里最大的 我需要忍让我家人，照顾他们的感受
弟弟要玩电脑 我得不让他 ? 妈妈要去看家私 我不陪她 ?
你在意学业我也很在意 , 但是比起家人和学业 ， 我注重家人因为我很怕失去最爱我的他们

我没有了爸爸 不是因为父母离婚是因为爸爸发生意外去世了 !!
我最爱的他已经不在了 ! 我不想在失去任何一个家里的人你明白吗 !?
所以他们要什么我都会优先让给他们 !
你是家里里面最小的 你的妈妈姐姐哥哥都会很疼你很宠你 ！
你有想过我的感受吗 ?


我真的很伤心也很痛恨为什么我有一个这么不体谅朋友的朋友！
就如我所观察到的 ,, 你只会对男生露出你那恶心又讨厌的温柔体贴和大方 ！
我没你那么优雅没你那么有气质但是我就是我 !
我不明白你为什么要和我其他朋友说我坏话 说我爱演装可爱发喬死三八

你知道你伤了我的心吗 ?

29.04.14

" When you are writing a story , dont let anyone else to hold the pen "

Yeaaaaaaa and I am back for blog ! :D
Sometimes people may think in many ways , some positively acted but negatively think and some negatively acted but thought positively .
However , no matter which is right and which is wrong , do not regret after choosing a choice cause life is only to be live once .
Somehow , love yourself more than loving others :)

In your quiet moments, what do you think about?  How far you’ve come, or how far you have to go?  Your strengths, or your weaknesses?  The best that might happen, or the worst that might come to be?  In your quiet moments, pay attention to your thoughts.  Because maybe, just maybe, the only thing that needs to shift in order for you to experience more happiness, more love, and more vitality, is your way of thinking.

As Maria Robinson once said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”  Nothing could be closer to the truth.  But before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back.

Check this out ! and think in your quiet moment :)

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you.  If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you.  You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot.  Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth.  And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on.  No, it won’t be easy.  There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them.  We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems.  That’s not how we’re made.  In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall.  Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time.  This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself.  Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.  Yes, help others; but help yourself too.  If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you likeeveryone else.  Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you.  Don’t change so people will like you.  Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
7. Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing.  Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success.  You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us.  We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past.  But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.  Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive.  But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either.  You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else.
11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place.  Evaluate situations and take decisive action.  You cannot change what you refuse to confront.  Making progress involves risk.  Period!  You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises.  Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely.  It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company.  There’s no need to rush.  If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet.  Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you.  But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others are doing better than you.  Concentrate on beating your own records every day.  Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own.  Ask yourself this:  “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you.  You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough.  But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past.  You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation.  So smile!  Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart.  You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate.  Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.”  It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.”  Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself!  And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too.  If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway.  Just do what you know in your heart is right.
21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it.  If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.  Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things.  The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done. 
24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile.  Don’t take the easy way out.  Do something extraordinary.
25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while.  You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well.  You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears.  The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life.  When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out.  But making one person smile CAN change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.  So narrow your focus.
28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy.  One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time?  Three years?  Five years?”  If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen.  Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story.  If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life.  Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs.  Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

These are inspiring me ! hope you guys love it too ~

08.05.14 

mid term gonna starts soon . 

life is going busy .

and i am going crazy . 

fought with friends , family and even i fought with myself .. 

i'm the kind of person who positively acted that i'm ok but actually i'm not 

and i'm the kind of person who thought negatively but still acting to be ok !

sometimes i find that Ok is not Ok ! Not Ok is Ok !

Dont understand me ? ok , fine :D

not going too long but just expressing my feeling on blog .

I know that GOD is the magic , but it seems that i havent get him close to me and i cant feel the warmest of his hand around me anymore.

I know that GOD always being with me as i need but i still need his strength as though is my strength . 

I know GOD is the one who cheered everyone in the world but for me i cant smile and laugh at this moment so please GOD , strengthen me up and cheer me as well . I need a place for me to rest . I know i need to chase for you and space up my self to get closer to you but please GOD , help me get through all the dificulties in my life . 

JB

Its been a long time i dont update my blog .. hee hee
Well , i m now more addicted to instagram xD 
how ever , i found out some quotes from JUSTIN BIEBER , although many people dont like him but i dont know why i have a special feeling on his quotes . 
Here is some sharing for you guys .. 

“I'm telling you, people. Everyday we wake up is another blessing. Follow your dreams and don't let anyone stop you. Never say never.” 

“Haters will say what they want, but their hate will never stop you from chasing your dream” 

“I want my world to be fun. No rules, no nothing. Like, no one can stop me. ”

“Born to be some body." You were born to be some body, maybe a vet, maybe a hero, maybe a care giver. What ever it is you were born to be some thing special and if you believe you can achieve” 

“The success I've achieved comes to me from God” 

“I'm not a fighter by nature, but, if I believe in something, I stand up for it” 

“Theres gonna be times in life when people tell you that you can't, thats when you just gotta turn around and say watch me.”

“No matter how much I try, I cant figure out how to not be adorable!” 

“No matter how talented you are , not everyone is going to like you , but that's life, stay strong” 

“If you don't dream big, there's no use of dreaming. If you don't have faith, there's nothing worth believing"

Maybe that's enough haha ~ all these quotes can actually make me stay positive in my study , my life , my dreams and many other ways .. I LOVE BIEBER he is adorable in the past and getting more handsome in his future . Even his attitude is terrible and horrible , but i like his quotes and appearance :)

By the way , i wished to comment about his haters here .. Its hurt to see and listen to bad words and bad comments . Do you all ever think of his feeling ? I started feeling sorry and sad for him as i read through all the comments on a specific website . I m sick of all those comments . He does not offended anyone , he is just living his life that he imagined and been dreaming all the time , so , whats wrong ?! No matter what people did , we should not comment about them , think what you are doing right now . Does anyone feel comfortable and praise anything and everything that you did ? Think about that , everyone makes mistake ! 

沒有你的日子 I

日子久了依然不习惯没有你的生活 , 虽然表面装得很开心 , 心里却很难受
谁没失恋过啊？当初选择拒绝不就好了吗？
说真爱情真的好可怕 , 我只会埋怨 ...
为什么不让我早点认识你呢？或者说为什么不让我迟些认识你呢？
成熟点的我或许会更努力的爱你...为什么我们的缘分就是这样?
我想把我的话都写在这里好了 .. 不去打扰你或许你会更快乐 ..

我好想你 , 真的 。
即使你已经不信任我，也没关系。我只想跟你说我很想你 每一天每一夜
我现在很后悔当初为什么不好好的努力去爱你 保护你  现在换来的是一身伤和不能放下的回忆
我现在只能把你曾经留给我的回忆好好的呵护着小心翼翼的藏进心里 傻乎乎的把你送我的戒指戴着只希望能够想起你曾经对我的好 把你送我的水壶用着即使轻轻的掉在地上心也会疼 当然坏习惯还是改不掉别人弄疼了他我还是一样会大骂一顿还是一样很想哭只希望我能一辈子都用着你送我的水壶 每一晚还是会亲了亲你送我的kitty喵才能安心睡着就算半夜睡不着我也会自言自语给他听当算是补偿你之前欠你的自言自语
对不起，在任何事情上我都能假装聪明可在爱情上我真的很笨
你说没有我也没关系可是当你离开我的时候我还是很不习惯你的离开我依然会在想你在干嘛，吃饱了吗，有好好读书吗，又在和那个女生聊天吗？是我不懂得珍惜 是我傻是我笨
好想问你 , 你现在好吗？可我没有勇气

我开始隐藏自己，很多时候当没人和我聊天时我又会想起你 , 想起我们的一切,然後很自責也很後悔。我不懂得如何向你道歉你才會原諒我可我知道或許你一輩子也原諒不到我吧？
我很想告訴你 ＂恨我吧＂可我卻想聽到的是＂愛我吧＂如果愛情真的有重來的機會我一定會不顧一切保護你愛著你。我真的不想再傷害你。

你說我是雙面人可是你不知道，我並沒有和他有什麼關係。那一天，那一夜他祇是故意想氣你，他只是在炫耀自己沒有的東西想讓你妒忌讓你吃醋。你可知道，當一個人在炫耀自己有什麼的時候就是失去什麼的時候。然後呢？過後的幾封信息都是他發的。他會發那幾封信息祇想要挽回你因為他知道他自己做錯事了，他將那美好的感情給毀了。我會知道這些是因為事後跟他聊起話來的時候聽到的。但我也有錯，如果沒有喜歡他一切就不會來不及。你罵我，我不還嘴就因為想讓你消氣、想讓時間平靜了猜想你解釋但我想現在已經沒那個機會了。我知道你不會在意我了，我知道你也不會再來看這部落了，我知道你心裡或許真的沒有我了、因為你也把我給block了。我很在意，你有想過當你罵我的時候我的感受是什麼嗎？你有想過當你罵了我過後我依然會是那個愛發小姐脾氣大罵一頓然後偷偷流淚過後又大哭了嗎？你有想過你那些話其實很傷人嗎？我錯、但不至於雙面人吧？我明明就是愛你的啊! 祇是我不夠努力而已嘛!! 本來我和她已經沒什麼聯絡了，就是因為你遇見了 ＂她＂ 我才找回他和他說你已經喜歡了別人。在那些時候他祇是安慰我也讓我傻傻地陷入一個錯覺。那段曖昧的日子很難受卻有點甜。他依然是你口裡的＂爛人＂，依然是對我大小聲，依然把我當成小俑女 可那一夜他告訴我他的夢想 也拒絕了我這些年對他的喜歡。知道了他的心聲，我決定不再和他有任何曖昧關係只能是純粹朋友。但是你依然不相信我。"but she is not mine"這就是我把它寫出來的意思。我的表達能力差還是你不明白我的用意？

當我發現到你把所有我們的東西刪除了心裡很痛因為你不在的時候他們就是我的寶貝你給我的一切我一直都很珍惜。當我發現的時候我有很生氣你的感覺又開始想罵你卻又不忍心。我真的很想好好的對待你，真的很想做一個疼你的女孩，完成我們的承諾。可是我卻不敢想像未來、我們已經分開了。這一次我們都離對方很遠了可是我還是很自私，自私的想把你留著自私的想不讓別的女生靠近你擁有你。我缺不想纏著你祇因為怕你嫌我煩怕你討厭我然後讓我滾，所以你離開的這些日子我不敢去找你也不敢對你說出思念的話。

羅佳欣我愛你。不是因為你對我好而已
我愛你是因為 I just wanna be with you the rest of my life ..
我好想對你說我要我們在一起 可是我沒那個勇氣
愛一個人為什麼那麼辛苦？愛一個人為什麼就不能好好的在一起？

First Love

你给我的感觉就像初恋 ♥

知道你的决定过后心里很不好过 , 一直以来在你眼里我就是那样的 .

但是我不后悔爱过你 , 不后悔承受之前所有的不好 , 一点都不后悔 .

你给我的感觉像是初恋 , 真的很温暖 .. 可是有初恋就会有失恋 ..

两 三 年前是如此 两三年后也是如此 . 越来越害怕 .. 

记得起初的承诺 ? 记得之前的约定 ?

可能我的脸皮真得很厚 , 一直很没有脸得把你挽留 .. 

今天收到你今早拿来的东西心里真的很想哭 , 但是我知道 . 

在这期间我不能哭 , 该勇敢 , 学习微笑 假装开心 面对考试

放心吧 , 我不会再傻下去了 . 以前的我已经不见了

以前 , 我真的会伤害自己 但是 如今我知道痛的不是身体是心 

就算怎么折磨自己 也不如心痛

我真的错了 , 我不应该认真 ..

我真的不知道结果会是这样 .. 我真的没有想过 ..

我也说过 , 我只是喜欢他 .. 你昨晚也那样对我说 ..

对不起 , 一直困扰你 .. 现在想告诉你 , 我放手吧 ..

即使再怎么舍不得你 , 再怎么想念你 , 再怎么爱你 .. 我也不想那么自私 再伤你 .

我说过 , 我不会再伤你的 , 但是我没想过 , 他才那一次来过你就会火大成这样 .. 

对不起 。

有缘的话 , 从新认识从新再爱 :)

BELIEVE IT , 这次到我追你 ♥

可能两三年后 , 二三十年后吧 ?

有缘 , 再见。

很想挽回 , 却知道自己不好 , 也知道 我应该来不及了吧 ?

可能我不应该被你爱 .

HURT

24.09.2013 - 25.09.2013
发生了很大件事 .


对不起是我伤害了你 , 我在这里跟你解释清楚吧
对 , 昨晚是xiao boy来找我了.
我不敢跟你说是因为我害怕你会跟他闹架 , 所以我保持沉默
是我的错 , 我想现在跟你说什么也已经没用了 , 我只能用写的 , 只希望你会看,明白,知道
我不再瞒你了 , 我跟他昨晚什么都没做过 , 真的是朋友聚聚旧而已
他昨晚睡在中间
我说过 我不喜欢把我喜欢的东西 借给人或者是送给人所以我总是让你睡在我旁边因为我不想失去你 , 可他不一样 .
相不相信由你 , 本来我是打算在25.10.2013跟你复合的即使是我提出也无所谓因为我爱你
昨晚会那样跟你吵是因为他说我跟你已经不是情侣了,不需要那么火大 . 所以他要我很绝的告诉你 , 我照做了 但是我不是有心要那样对你的 , 对不起。

25.09.2013

妈咪知道xiao boy来找我了因为昨晚上他半夜出去打包的时候不小心给舅舅看到
妈咪早上的时候骂我骂到很够力 , 在我发脾气的时候 xiao boy 还骂我
他也说了 , 这是第一次来我家也是最后一次了 , 我再也没有机会再见到他
因为妈咪和舅舅骂我的时候有提到xiao boy , 他很不爽 ..
还有他也说了 , 我跟她再也没有关系 , 叫我成熟一点跟你的关系别弄到拖泥带水 .
我今天真的没有mood , 25.09.2013

对 , 我不正常 , 变态
但是这就是我 .
人坏不坏不是看外表的 , 有些人坏是因为他们杀人放火犯了罪 , 可是我 , 拉界的朋友 xiao boy , 大bee 算的是什么坏 ?
吸烟喝酒夜蒲就坏吗 ? 我们并没有犯罪 , 并不需要坐牢
难道你没有过 ?
在不同的阶段 有不同的思想 有不同的愿望 , 因为人都在长大 , 学习
在你们的眼里 , 或许我们只是一堆没用的东西 , 一堆不正常的思想可你不知道我们的故事.
告诉你 , 我也不知道为什么会喜欢女的 , 喜欢就喜欢 没的解释
走这条路就已经知道要承受这些闲言闲语 , 嘲笑 , 歧视 SO WHAT !?
我既然选择了这条路就不要阻止我 , 我这样也是为了自己的幸福
对 , 或许现在不是时候说幸福 , 但是为了未来 , 为了成长 , 学习 .. 我会承受这一切
你说我可以选择变回正常 , 对 , 是我的选择 . 但是我根本不想，我现在这样也很开心 。

青春期 , 不疯狂不闹事根本一点也没有趣吧 ?
虽然我今天是闯了个大祸但是我学习到些事 ..

伤透了 . 没食欲 , 没精神 像崩溃了一样
看透了 . 已没用 , 谁的心已经不再是我的

到最后才明白 有些人走了就走了，有些人等了就等了，有些事过了也就过了，那颗心给了就碎了

中学

越大越不像话 其实是错的 .
我升中学了过后 , 我真的变了很多
小学的我 . 不爱读书 , 乱骂粗话 还有很多不好的东西 (不要说出来啦,paiseh吖吖 . x) )
所以 , 我领悟了 .
升中学后 , 我开始变乖 .
变乖需要很久 . 真的 .. 很久
可是做乖孩子的我 . 有时候却想要放弃这责任 .
因为很难当 . 不管你做什么好事他们都不会说你好 . 说你乖
可是就算你做了一件坏事 , 别人就会把你看得很低 . 会一直说你 .

但是感谢上帝把我教的变乖了
也很感谢上帝给了我一群新朋友 , 好朋友 .

可是上帝啊 ..
你能不能让我的朋友真心的对待我?

上帝啊 , 我只求你给我以为朋友 是 不喜欢勾心斗角，不喜欢被算计，不喜欢假假的友情。我喜欢简单的人，简单的事，整天笨笨呆呆 嘻嘻哈哈的过着，这样就够了. 

23.02.2013

终于可以看到我可爱的sampat婆了
真的开心死 ! xPP
哈哈 , 终于可以跟他合照了 :P

我超爱的 x3
分享分享先 ....

虽然我和别人不一样 , 但是我活得比别人开心

这样的生活已让我满足 :)

p/s : 有几张是独家的哦 ! 哇哈哈 , 超爱的 ╭(╯3╰)╮

今天已经是 02.04.2013了 .
好久没上部落了 . 上面的post , 我想 ... 在写下去也没意思吧 .
因为我们分手了 . 哈哈 .
在一起 3 个月 6 天 就分手了 .
爱他 . 那又如何 ?
他不相信 .
2013 年 , 第一个伤我的人就是你 .
2012 年 , 最后一个爱我的也是你 .
我真的很想回到开心的我们 .
看着这些照片 .. 我哭得不知道该做什么 .
心不在焉 . 差点给车闯 . 我好笨哦 .
如果我真的被车闯了 . 你会不会在乎我 ?
说多也没用了吧 ?

在学校的时候真的很想把所有东西都写上来
可是 , 回到家开了电脑却脑袋空空 , 什么都写不出

那么快就离开了 .
我说 我没有放不下 “他” , 可是你却不相信.

我在腾讯微博看到这个东西 . 然后又掉泪 . 哈哈 , 可是我觉得我做不到 .

如果当初没有相遇，或许我不会是现在的我。在你的世界里，我笑过，痛过，满身疲惫。放手，是最好的解脱。不会再为你掉眼泪，不会再傻傻等你的电话，不会再苦求你不要离开。爱若卑微，便不再是爱；爱若疼痛，就不叫爱。


每一分钟都在等你的信息 . 每一分钟手握着电话不放
我真的好傻 . 人家都不要你了 . 你还那么在意干嘛 ?

大大声跟妈妈说 同性是有希望的 !

可是现在我却还没想到要怎么跟妈妈讲 “ 我分手了” .
我证明不到给他看 , 同性是有希望的 ..
伤心透了 . 哈哈 .

真的很想证明给所有人看 . 同性真的有希望的 .
可是 ,,,, 唉 .
能挽回 该有多好 ?
好想念 那个时候的我们 ..

伤 .

伤 , 是人带给另一个人的痛 .
有时候 , 一句话就能伤到那人的心 .
或许这个痛一下子就能治愈好 , 或许 这个痛永远都不能忘记 .
有时候很多事情 我不知道是我的错 还是 根本不关我的事 ?
难道和朋友相聚一会儿 , 喝喝酒 , 聊聊天 , 玩玩卡 都有不行吗 ?
其实 , 也不应该说是朋友 . 应该说是 , 帮我消费时间的人 .
朋友 , 不配我这种人说 . 因为 , 那些朋友只是在利用我 , 玩弄我 .
而我 , 已经不在乎了 :D

我 , 已经没有想要有朋友的心态了 .
因为 , 朋友是带给我自己的一种伤痛 .
唯有神是我的朋友 . 永远的好朋友 :)
我相信上帝已经预备了一个比现在更好的朋友给我 , 我相信这个人会出现的 .
只要相信 , 神必定会给我的 !
等待是最好的结果 .

朋友啊 , 在你面前做好戏 , 在你背后却做了一大堆你不知道的事 .
真是伤人啊 .. 你们的一字一句 , 终于让我看清了你们是个怎么样的人 .
感谢 这次的争吵 :DD
主啊 , 我希望你预备的那位更好的朋友能了解我 , 不背叛 , 不利用我的

2012-2013 我看透了很多 .
算了吧 , 不在乎了 . 说不在乎其实是在掩饰自己的痛 :)
反正也无所谓 . 等到哪一天 , 你们体会到了 , 才会明白的
我也只能把这一切当作是考验 .

人啊 , 嘴巴真是多话 .
总是爱把别人家的事告诉全世界!
我恨这样的人 ..
为什么就是爱把别人家的事情到处讲 ?
真不明白 ....

第一百五十个post ; 关于我和她

妈妈 .. 开始反对我和佳欣在一起的事了 .
也开始反对我同性恋 .
这几天一直听她唠叨 .
连今天 , 17.02.2013 拿水壶去给她 , 妈妈都不给我留在那边多一下 .
我真的很难过 .
没有心情的吃晚餐 .
没有心情想任何事情 .
没有心情做任何东西 .
我只想冲过去找 她 .

一上车就流泪 . 我控制不到眼泪 .
除了 xiao boy , 我再也没有为别的 T 哭了 .
所以 .. 佳欣 , 你是第二个 !
珍惜珍惜 :)

不是我想要成为同性恋 .
是因为 . 我不能接受我的过去 .
我不想回想 . 我不想要 .
甚至我曾经恨透自己 .
我不是不想做正常人 .
是我做到不开心 .
做到我很委屈 .
那为什么我还要那样委屈自己 ?
做人 , 不是应该要活得开心吗 ?
最起码 , 同志们不会让我伤害我 !
他们不能对我做什么 . 他们比男人还要体贴 !
他们比男人还要懂我 .
现在的男人 , 为了什么 ?
金钱 , 色 .
在男人的身上我找不到爱 !
自己经历的事情 , 自己最清楚 .
自己拥有什么样的家庭 , 自己最清楚 .
自己看到什么样的情形 , 自己最清楚 .
妈 , 家人 , 朋友 , 社会 , 你们不懂我 !
你们 , 不知道我想要的是什么 ...
不是说我自私 .. 我只是为了我的人生
人生就是要自己来掌握的不是吗 ?
快乐就是要自己演出来的不是吗 ?
为什么要看别人的脸色做人 ?
那样不就很累吗 ?
男人 , 不是我最好的选择 .
难道 , 你认为我想要被歧视吗 ?
难道 , 你认为我想要被朋友们看不起吗 ?
难道 , 你认为我不想好像正常的人一起出去拍拖吗 ?
我只是在保护自己的身体 , 在保护自己的心

我和她在一起很开心 .
我不想和他这样就完了 .
我不想因为有多人的反对而分开 .
会很难过的 ..

你说我今天很不一样 .
因为不舍得 而流泪 .
原因 很简单 . 因为我爱你 .
我说过 3 个月后才会跟你说我爱你 .
但是 , 只从那一次的吵架后 , 我很害怕失去 .
所以我应该要珍惜 .
我没有不一样 :) 我只是没有表现跟平时没有的我 .
所以你才会觉得我不一样 .

有时候 , 很害怕
有时候 , 很想念
有时候 , 很生气
有时候 , 很爱哭
有时候 , 很爱闹
有时候 , 不舍得
有时候 , 很调皮
有时候 , 我也很需要疼爱自己 , 我也很需要疼爱你

我找不到爱上男人的理由 .
别再勉强我了 .

14.02.2013 情人节

我来告诉你些秘密 ...................

shhhhhh ....

今年的情人节 .... 是最特别的 ♥


你你你 罗佳欣 暗爽了囖 !!! =3=
本来我不想写的 . 可是 ... 那么特别 , 怎么可以不写 ? 更不可以忘掉 ~ (￣▽￣)**

我跟你讲吼 ... 我很后悔一件事情就是 .. 没有好好跟你拍照! =3=

今年是第一次有一个 真正的情人陪我过情人节 . 

虽然出到去还是有很多眼光 , 不好听的话 . 但是我想说 .. 

不管怎么困难 . 我都会一直走下去 . 

我相信 .. 你也会陪我一起走的 :)

今年也是我第一次收到情人节礼物 .

我很喜欢的礼物 .

你们 .... 想不想知道是什么来的 ?

就算你讲不像我也要放上来 ! xD 

╮(╯▽╰)╭

好吃的 kit kat x3 真的不舍得吃咯 =3=

还有还有 、

可爱的 kitty , 香香的 kitty , 毛毛的 kitty 

我真的无法形容你 吖 (′▽`〃)

虽然早上一整天呆在家 . 

但是可以和傻婆睡下午觉 , 玩 , 吃午饭 , 发脾气 是最开心 最幸福的 ♥

晚上还可以跟家人 还有 傻婆去看戏  

开心到 .. (｡･ω･)

戏院冷冷 =3= 但是给傻婆抱着的感觉也是很幸福的事 !! 

我知道 .. 我很坏 ..

每次晚上跟你讲电话都会睡着 ==

好噜 . 我下次不敢了 xD

你每次都让我 , 每次都哄我 .. 我真的被你宠坏了 ! (｡・`ω´･)

虽然我们在一起才 1 个月 20 天 , 可是你对我真的很好 .

是啦 . 我知道 我每天发脾气 . 可是我已经在 control 了 !  xPP

谢谢你啦 . 我们没有别人那么 sweet . 可是我已经很满足了(●′ω`●) 

  

友谊 :) 哈

做一件事并不难，难的是在于坚持；

坚持一下也不难，难的是坚持到底。

原来 我的生命就是 开心过了 就 需要面对的一堆伤心事 .
我发现生活真的很不简单 . 是我们把生活看着太简单了 .
一天一天的过 , 很简单
一件一件的做 , 很简单

难处在哪 ?
当你把东西 / 该做事情丢到明天才做 , 生活就会变得很复杂 !
当一大堆东西丢到你面前时 你会觉得他是个大包袱 , 你会觉得他很烦

简简单单又过了好几天 , 开开心心也过了好几天 .
但是 开心的日子已经完毕了 .
因为 , 当友谊不在时 , 不管自己有多么开心都不能得到朋友之间的欢笑

我的友谊搞砸了 :D
我 会哭 , 会伤心 .
但想回头 , 我和必要为了他们而流泪 ?
该流泪的是他们 .
失去了我这个天天都做sampat东西 / 讲不好笑的笑话当小丑弄他们笑
回想了这些 , 我一点都不觉得寂寞 . 我一点都不觉得不开心 .
虽然 , 没有了他们 , 我的生活少了些欢笑 .
虽然 , 没有了他们 , 我的出街时间就没有那么紧了 .

我的性格是改不掉的 .
我也不想去改 .
我拥有的是自己的性格 . 是特别的 .

我很情绪化 , 我很容易发脾气 , 即使不需要生气也故意闹脾气
我很容易哭 , 我很笨
我只因为拥有这些性格是因为我身边朋友不多 .
我不想失去任何一个 . 但是 我错了 . 朋友少没关系 . 但真心的朋友 , 却一个一个的离开 .
是我的错 .
我错在拥有这些 特别 的性格 .
我的特别你们一点都不喜欢 :)

一个离开了 , 一班一起走 . 丢下的却是我一个 .

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我没关系 , 我无所谓 .

至少我一个人过得也不错 .

有时候 , 一句对不起真的可以挽回很多事 .

但是 , 你跟我说对不起的事情不是在于 友谊 的 吵架 .

而是在于你男朋友做错事情的时候 .

男人 . 对你来说真的那么重要 ?

我不认为他真的能和你走一辈子 .

想一想 . 现在不好好读书 . 当你 感情失败了 , 学业又不好时 , 你要如何面对一切 ?

我会那样说是因为我不想你受伤 .

醒醒吧 :) 这样说 也许你会不喜欢 . 也许你现在会觉得我很烦 , 很讨人厌

可是 ,

我想送你一句 ..

得到的时候你在毁，失去的时候你在悔。我想说，生活不是游戏，没有重新来过，逝去便不能满状态复活。

我这句话的意思 是 " 在你得到时间的时候你却不好好使用 , 时间过了你才后悔没做到该做的事 . 人生没有重来 . "

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吵架 ? 有吗 ? 

还是 我自以为 ?

哈哈 . 开玩笑 , 怎么可能是假的 

感谢上帝让我学到了一点点东西 .. :D 

有些人，我们不必看的太重，因为不值得。

你们 , 找我永远都不会有好事 .

我不会傻傻的 让你们在利用 , 玩耍了 , 呵呵 

够了 , 一切就那样到此结束 

上帝就是我最好的朋友 . 

有时候，没有下一次，没有机会重来，没有暂停继续。有时候，错过了现在，就永远永远的没机会了。

我知道自己现在最重要的事情就是要读好我的书 , 做好自己的本分 .

人生有三样东西是无法挽留的：生命、时间和爱，所以我们能做的就是去珍惜。

爱 , 不一定是情侣的爱 . 我想说 , 家人的爱 才是最重要的 。

2013 life

SERIOUS in LIFE :)

yes ,  play a serious game in life for something and for us to reach everything .

今年可以说是最疯狂的一年 .

希望在疯狂的这一年里面 我能学到点东西 , 能开心的过 , 能得到我所想要的东西

疯狂 . 其实这是我教会里面的主题 ( 为主疯狂 , CRAZY FOR JESUS ) 

我想了几遍 , 我不但只要为主疯狂 我还要为我的生命疯狂的跑

以前的我 会因为小事而闹自杀 . 但现在我明白 , 生命美好的东西是要自己去寻求

寻求 中 , 一定会遇到困难 苦难 所以人要坚持的走下去 

因为人坚持是因为自己的目标

上一回的post是关于坚持我的梦想 

这一次的坚持是关于我的人生 

人生是多么难走的事 . 

需要面对很多问题才能成功

失败的时候又哭得要命

哭完了后又要喊累 ....

人嘛 ,, 活来就是为了人生 :)

当我看到这句话 , 我就会在我最丧气的时候想起 ;;

"每个人都会累，没人能为你承担所有的伤悲，人总有那么一段时间要学会自己长大，人就是需要坚强的走下去 ， 坚持的达到自己的目标。"

真的非常有道理 .. 人 就是要学习 

时间会一直往前 不会退后

人也一直会长大不会变小

其实人生很快就会完了 .. 

因为时间 很快就会过完 

一秒 一秒 的过 ... 过完了 , 人就老了 

我 就是要为我的生命疯狂 !

疯狂的做每件事情 ! 

我 答应自己 不会因为不会做 , 不想做 而放弃 生命里面的每一件事情

事情越多 , 上帝给我们的考验越多

考验越多 , 学到的东西自然越多

学到的东西越多 , 人就成长了 , 成熟了 , 老了

而世界就会更美好的 

我相信 , 今年我一定会活的很好 :)

有人说，人生最柔软的地方就是舍不得。

有人说，人生最邪恶的地方就是只有一次。

舍不得，即使再舍不得，

当一些事已逝去，

当一些人已走远，

你要做的不是缅怀，

不是舍不得、放不下，

而是要果断地舍下，

勇敢地向前走，

向着未来奔跑。