PERFECT BODY? OVER WEIGHT?

Advertisements all around the world with girls “perfect bodies” on it. Even advertisements are trying to show the importance of having a “perfect body.” I think that this is very wrong because everybody is different. Not every girl is going to have a “perfect body.” Girls sometimes have bad thoughts and some are suicidal because of the pressure of having a “perfect body.” Girls are pressured to lose weight and they are sometimes even made fun of because of being overweight. Sometimes it’s not the girl’s fault if she is overweight because it could be that her parents are overweight and they made her eat a lot of food and maybe even junk food. Advertisements are for products thats why they shouldn't advertise on losing weight.

According to The New York Times, these types of advertisements are on subways and busses. Some of the advertisements have pictures of girls from different races and quotes saying, “I’m beautiful the way I am.” This is a kind of motivational ad because it gives the message that no one is perfect and that everybody should be happy with what they have. Ads are a huge deal because lots of people see them. They should have good things like the one about loving your body the way it is, not like the one about having to lose weight.

City Of Love - PARIS

In the fall of 2010, Lily was boarding a transit train heading to Paris. It had always been a dream of hers to go there, but she never thought in a million years that it would be so soon. As she was reading Robert Cormier's The Chocolate War, a man approached her and tapped her on the shoulder.

"Excuse me miss, is that seat taken?" he said.

His finger was pointed to the empty seat next to hers, blocking her view of the book. Annoyed, she answered with a hint of anger in her voice but did not look up as she did not want to take her eyes off the book.

"What?"

"I said, is that seat taken?"

She looked up to the man and was left in a state of awe, as if she had never seen anybody like him before. Brown hair with a tint of auburn, green eyes that pierced through her skull when he stared at her and a smile that made Ryan Seacrest's grin resembled that of a two year old's undeveloped smile.

"Uh, no," was the only two words she could say. It was obvious that she was a little flustered by his presence beside her. 

As he made his way to the empty seat beside her, the camera that was hanging on his neck made unexpected contact with her forehead.

"Ow! Hey, watch it!" she yelled. The sharp pain to her forehead made her raise her voice at him.

"Oh my, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to. I guess my mum was right about me," he said in a sombre voice.

She was puzzled by his statement. With her hand touching her forehead, looking for any signs of swelling, she asked, "Right about what?"

"She said one day, I would be the reason a person has to be sent to the hospital," he explained.

She couldn't help but giggle at his response. Must be a mummy's boy, she thought.

"Well, I'm Lily. Nice to meet you,"

"Hi, I'm Colin. Sorry I hit you in the head with my camera. Wasn't my intention, honest!"

He tried to explain himself, but there was no need for an apology, as she started to grow fondof him. He was of her too, but neither one of them made a move. Lily was a student from Malaysia and Colin was a backpacker from London. They both bonded on the train heading to Paris, as if they were old friends reunited. Since neither one of them knew anybody there, they decided to make it easier for the both of them and explore the city together. As they reached Paris, they got off the train and promised to meet again in the morning. They both got into their taxis and went to their respective hotels, anticipating the week they will spend together in the beautiful city.

Over the course of five days, they have explored the city through and through. It was as if they planned to travel to the 'City of Love' together as lovers, not random strangers who met on the same train. Colin couldn't help but question his feelings towards Lily; feelings that he never thought he had. He knew he had developed strong feelings for her, mainly because of her carefree and outgoing personality. It's as if she has no care in the world, he thought. Every time she laughed, he would smile and stare at her like she was the most beautiful thing he had ever laid his eyes on.

On the fifth night during a stroll around the city, they found themselves under the brightly lit Eiffel Tower standing tall above them. He knew this would be the right time to confess his feelings for her.

"Hey Lily, I know we've only known each other for a couple of days, but I can't help but think that you're the best person I've ever known, and I-- uhh,"

He chocked.

"You what?" She wondered, as she nudged his hand to quicken a response.

"I think I'm in love with you. Your eyes, your smile. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. You make me feel as if I don't have to have a care in the world, as long as I'm with the one I love. I love you, Lily. There, I said it. And to think that I met you on a random train, "

She froze. Her face quickly changed. That was not the reaction he wanted to see from her.

"I can't fall in love with you. I'm so sorry to have led you on, Colin. I never wanted anybody to get hurt," she mumbled.

"Well, can I know why? At least give me closure, so I wouldn't beat myself up too much," he said.

He could see the tears in her eyes. Her eyes started to transform into two pools of water, and the glimmer started to crawl down her cheeks. She broke down.

"I'm not going to be here for much longer. I'm going, Colin. Going. Gone, into oblivion. I have only days, if I'm lucky, maybe months. That's why I'm here in Paris. At least before I die, I want the streets of Paris to be the last thing that I see. But then, you happened. And I-- what I'm trying to say is that I'm not going to live, and I know if you fall in love with me, I'm going to have to leave you soon. I don't want to leave you here hanging. I never planned for this. I never wanted for this to happen to me. To you, especially you. I'm so sorry, Colin. I really am," she cried.

"Hey, you know I'm never going to leave you. I love you so much. I don't care that I've only known you for a week, I promise you that the next few days we spend together will be the best moment you'll ever have. As long as you're still here, I'm not letting you go. I promise, Lily. I'm not letting you go,"

Although those words came out of his mouth, deep inside he felt lost to know that she will be gone soon. He knew the week he spent in Paris with her was the best thing that has ever happened to him, and he wanted her cancer to be the last thing she'll remembers when she's going. Over the next two days, they spent every waking moment with each other, knowing that they will never get that chance again. They were now lovers in the 'City of Love'.

On the last day of the trip, they made their way to the train station together and waited. Waited for the train that would part them. While waiting for the train, they gaze into each others eyes and had the same exact look in their eyes. They knew exactly what the other was thinking. They laughed, and their hands were now intertwined as one. They walked slowly towards the railway and laid down in each other's embrace. They knew that they couldn't possibly live without each other.

"To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die," she said, with a smile on her face.

They could now hear the sound of the train that was going to be their demise. It's coming. It's getting closer and closer. As the train was just seconds away from stealing their existence, they looked at each other and smiled meaningfully.

３０.０６.１４

你永远不会知道，你那种忽冷忽热的态度多伤人。

相识多年的我们今天却一句话也都说不出　这是到底为什么　?

我得罪你哪根毛了小姐?　我得罪你男朋友哪根葱了?　

在学校话也不说正眼都不看对方一眼这到底是什么回事　?

脑里充满疑问...心中充满痛恨...

男朋友大完吗???　　　

难道你以后的日子都是靠男朋友?请问你男朋友什么料?保得了你一世?

对　,　家世可能可以但他思想像个小孩子那样幼不幼稚点呢?

成熟点吧孩子..　

“人生不是谁没有了谁就不得了的”　听过这话吗?

你说你男朋友没了你可能会想不开自杀。

我只能劝告你说这种人很危险啊..万一他真的想不开自杀那你就是杀人凶手了吧?

别以为没了一个男人你就没了全世界,也别人为你男友没了你也不行好吗?

你认为他现在对你说的承诺是一辈子的吗?

还没走入红地毯，进入神的圣殿别以为你会跟这男人一辈子好吗拜托

我没想过你可以为了一个男人放弃你的身边的“朋友”。

或许你没把我们当是朋友吧？

也难怪....你这种人根本不配有朋友。

你再不改你的性格以后出了社会你真的会没朋友。

算了吧。

每次假装和好了但是心里还是很不甘愿　为什么?

你有没有想过我的感受　?

就算没吵架你也对人家爱理不理..这是你对朋友的表现吗　?

你要记得你不喜欢的人也未必喜欢你，你喜欢的人也未必他们也喜欢你。

女孩，请你学会坚强。

不要轻易落泪，就算难过，请一个人哭泣，不要找人倾诉，不要用眼泪去博取同情，因为这个世界上，同情是一种多余的东西，别让你的悲伤被人误读成懦弱。对于伤害，淡笑付之。从中吸取教训，不再被伤害第二次，这样就足够了。不要一遍遍抚摸伤口，否则会变成一道丑陋的疤。时间自然会抚平一切痕迹，不要在逝去的时间里沉溺、过多浪费你的感情。

女孩，请你学会自尊。

你可以倾慕一个男孩是欣赏他的相貌，但请你不要像花痴一样的到处宣传，也许被男孩听到他会高兴，但他仅仅是为那句夸赞的话而高兴，对于话的主人，不会在意，甚至，鄙夷。真的想赞美他，说给他一个人听，足够。你可以很爱很爱一个人，但请你不要丢了自己，别为他而活，留一份尊严给自己。这个世界上，能够永远爱你的人，只有你自己。不要爱上别人的人，别妄想用自尊换取他，这赌局，输的是自尊，而你输不起。

女孩，请你尊重别人。

就算你光芒耀眼，不乏追求者，也请你一次只爱一个人。并且，请你勇于承认你的感情，不要让别人的等待无限期搁浅，更不要作为你炫耀的资本，别人的自尊，是你无法承受之重。对于别人的出丑，请你不要笑。就算真的好笑，所有人都笑了，也请你不要笑。这是对人的一种最起码的尊重，哪怕他是你最讨厌的人，也不要去嘲笑他，用光明正大的手段回击他，不要在暗地里伤害别人。

女孩，请你节制自己。

对于别人送的东西，尽量不要。并且，永远不要向别人索要什么。没有谁有义务向你奉献什么，哪怕仅仅是一块你喜欢的巧克力，请你自己去买，不要开口索要。一切想要的东西，请通过努力获得。一个女孩嘴馋，是她学坏的第一步。如果爱，请默爱。做一株向日葵，即使在夜里，也默默的坚持。爱不要轻易说出口，更不要向所有人宣布你的爱，它是一种承诺，不是广告，不是宣传片。

Friend ?

Yeaaaa ! 又上来部落了 :D

Hmmm , 恩啦又是伤心所以才上来写下心情的啦 ~

题目是 : 朋友 , 但你觉得我有吗 ?

嗯 , 我有朋友 , 问题在于他们是否对我真心 ?

这个问题令我困扰很久 ... 

我发现 , 每个人都在比赛 . 比来比去 , 很累人你不觉得吗 ?

我身边朋友不多 , 真心的也没几个 。

跟你相似多年，最近才认清你了。

很伤心真的 。

我一直以为你很大方体贴又温柔 。

的确没错，但这些都会是像男生表现的罢了。

我最近发现你越来越自私，或许是有了男朋友的关系吧。

今天洗澡的时候我在想 ,, 每次我没来上课或去补习班的时候你都不会把笔记或功课交给我而当你没来补习或是上课的时候我却一厢情愿的把笔记借给你把功课让你抄。

可是为什么我“一厢情愿”的让给你可你却没有想过要借给我。

你知道原因吗 ? 因为我把你当朋友 .. 我想你好，也想和你分享。

可你呢 ?

上个星期五我没去补习班 问你借了笔记你却找借口说笔记不在你那儿不能给我 没关系。

其他朋友问我借补习班的笔记，我借了给他们。

你说我很笨也不应该。因为他们没有和我们一起补习所以不用借给他们。

虽然愚蠢但是就因为我把他们当朋友所以我才这么做。到后来得到的是你的辱骂。

我好伤心... 

其实你真的很自私

当我在网上看到这些的时候我真的哭了 ，而且 两次都是因为你 , 我的朋友 而哭的

我的心很脆弱 , 谁对我好 我就对谁好 ，谁对我不好 我却傻傻的藏在心里不说

OK 我承认我是 irresponsible but 请问你可以体谅一下人吗 ?
你是家里最小的 , 我是家里最大的 我需要忍让我家人，照顾他们的感受
弟弟要玩电脑 我得不让他 ? 妈妈要去看家私 我不陪她 ?
你在意学业我也很在意 , 但是比起家人和学业 ， 我注重家人因为我很怕失去最爱我的他们

我没有了爸爸 不是因为父母离婚是因为爸爸发生意外去世了 !!
我最爱的他已经不在了 ! 我不想在失去任何一个家里的人你明白吗 !?
所以他们要什么我都会优先让给他们 !
你是家里里面最小的 你的妈妈姐姐哥哥都会很疼你很宠你 ！
你有想过我的感受吗 ?


我真的很伤心也很痛恨为什么我有一个这么不体谅朋友的朋友！
就如我所观察到的 ,, 你只会对男生露出你那恶心又讨厌的温柔体贴和大方 ！
我没你那么优雅没你那么有气质但是我就是我 !
我不明白你为什么要和我其他朋友说我坏话 说我爱演装可爱发喬死三八

你知道你伤了我的心吗 ?

29.04.14

" When you are writing a story , dont let anyone else to hold the pen "

Yeaaaaaaa and I am back for blog ! :D
Sometimes people may think in many ways , some positively acted but negatively think and some negatively acted but thought positively .
However , no matter which is right and which is wrong , do not regret after choosing a choice cause life is only to be live once .
Somehow , love yourself more than loving others :)

In your quiet moments, what do you think about?  How far you’ve come, or how far you have to go?  Your strengths, or your weaknesses?  The best that might happen, or the worst that might come to be?  In your quiet moments, pay attention to your thoughts.  Because maybe, just maybe, the only thing that needs to shift in order for you to experience more happiness, more love, and more vitality, is your way of thinking.

As Maria Robinson once said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”  Nothing could be closer to the truth.  But before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back.

Check this out ! and think in your quiet moment :)

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. – Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you.  If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you.  You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot.  Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth.  And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on.  No, it won’t be easy.  There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them.  We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems.  That’s not how we’re made.  In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall.  Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time.  This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.
3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself.  Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.  Yes, help others; but help yourself too.  If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you likeeveryone else.  Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you.  Don’t change so people will like you.  Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
7. Stop being scared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing.  Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success.  You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us.  We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past.  But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.  Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive.  But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either.  You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else.
11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place.  Evaluate situations and take decisive action.  You cannot change what you refuse to confront.  Making progress involves risk.  Period!  You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises.  Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely.  It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company.  There’s no need to rush.  If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet.  Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you.  But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others are doing better than you.  Concentrate on beating your own records every day.  Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own.  Ask yourself this:  “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you.  You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough.  But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past.  You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation.  So smile!  Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart.  You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate.  Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.”  It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.”  Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself!  And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too.  If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway.  Just do what you know in your heart is right.
21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it.  If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.  Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things.  The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done. 
24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile.  Don’t take the easy way out.  Do something extraordinary.
25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while.  You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well.  You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears.  The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life.  When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out.  But making one person smile CAN change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.  So narrow your focus.
28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy.  One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time?  Three years?  Five years?”  If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen.  Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story.  If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life.  Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs.  Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

These are inspiring me ! hope you guys love it too ~

08.05.14 

mid term gonna starts soon . 

life is going busy .

and i am going crazy . 

fought with friends , family and even i fought with myself .. 

i'm the kind of person who positively acted that i'm ok but actually i'm not 

and i'm the kind of person who thought negatively but still acting to be ok !

sometimes i find that Ok is not Ok ! Not Ok is Ok !

Dont understand me ? ok , fine :D

not going too long but just expressing my feeling on blog .

I know that GOD is the magic , but it seems that i havent get him close to me and i cant feel the warmest of his hand around me anymore.

I know that GOD always being with me as i need but i still need his strength as though is my strength . 

I know GOD is the one who cheered everyone in the world but for me i cant smile and laugh at this moment so please GOD , strengthen me up and cheer me as well . I need a place for me to rest . I know i need to chase for you and space up my self to get closer to you but please GOD , help me get through all the dificulties in my life . 

JB

Its been a long time i dont update my blog .. hee hee
Well , i m now more addicted to instagram xD 
how ever , i found out some quotes from JUSTIN BIEBER , although many people dont like him but i dont know why i have a special feeling on his quotes . 
Here is some sharing for you guys .. 

“I'm telling you, people. Everyday we wake up is another blessing. Follow your dreams and don't let anyone stop you. Never say never.” 

“Haters will say what they want, but their hate will never stop you from chasing your dream” 

“I want my world to be fun. No rules, no nothing. Like, no one can stop me. ”

“Born to be some body." You were born to be some body, maybe a vet, maybe a hero, maybe a care giver. What ever it is you were born to be some thing special and if you believe you can achieve” 

“The success I've achieved comes to me from God” 

“I'm not a fighter by nature, but, if I believe in something, I stand up for it” 

“Theres gonna be times in life when people tell you that you can't, thats when you just gotta turn around and say watch me.”

“No matter how much I try, I cant figure out how to not be adorable!” 

“No matter how talented you are , not everyone is going to like you , but that's life, stay strong” 

“If you don't dream big, there's no use of dreaming. If you don't have faith, there's nothing worth believing"

Maybe that's enough haha ~ all these quotes can actually make me stay positive in my study , my life , my dreams and many other ways .. I LOVE BIEBER he is adorable in the past and getting more handsome in his future . Even his attitude is terrible and horrible , but i like his quotes and appearance :)

By the way , i wished to comment about his haters here .. Its hurt to see and listen to bad words and bad comments . Do you all ever think of his feeling ? I started feeling sorry and sad for him as i read through all the comments on a specific website . I m sick of all those comments . He does not offended anyone , he is just living his life that he imagined and been dreaming all the time , so , whats wrong ?! No matter what people did , we should not comment about them , think what you are doing right now . Does anyone feel comfortable and praise anything and everything that you did ? Think about that , everyone makes mistake ! 

沒有你的日子 I

日子久了依然不习惯没有你的生活 , 虽然表面装得很开心 , 心里却很难受
谁没失恋过啊？当初选择拒绝不就好了吗？
说真爱情真的好可怕 , 我只会埋怨 ...
为什么不让我早点认识你呢？或者说为什么不让我迟些认识你呢？
成熟点的我或许会更努力的爱你...为什么我们的缘分就是这样?
我想把我的话都写在这里好了 .. 不去打扰你或许你会更快乐 ..

我好想你 , 真的 。
即使你已经不信任我，也没关系。我只想跟你说我很想你 每一天每一夜
我现在很后悔当初为什么不好好的努力去爱你 保护你  现在换来的是一身伤和不能放下的回忆
我现在只能把你曾经留给我的回忆好好的呵护着小心翼翼的藏进心里 傻乎乎的把你送我的戒指戴着只希望能够想起你曾经对我的好 把你送我的水壶用着即使轻轻的掉在地上心也会疼 当然坏习惯还是改不掉别人弄疼了他我还是一样会大骂一顿还是一样很想哭只希望我能一辈子都用着你送我的水壶 每一晚还是会亲了亲你送我的kitty喵才能安心睡着就算半夜睡不着我也会自言自语给他听当算是补偿你之前欠你的自言自语
对不起，在任何事情上我都能假装聪明可在爱情上我真的很笨
你说没有我也没关系可是当你离开我的时候我还是很不习惯你的离开我依然会在想你在干嘛，吃饱了吗，有好好读书吗，又在和那个女生聊天吗？是我不懂得珍惜 是我傻是我笨
好想问你 , 你现在好吗？可我没有勇气

我开始隐藏自己，很多时候当没人和我聊天时我又会想起你 , 想起我们的一切,然後很自責也很後悔。我不懂得如何向你道歉你才會原諒我可我知道或許你一輩子也原諒不到我吧？
我很想告訴你 ＂恨我吧＂可我卻想聽到的是＂愛我吧＂如果愛情真的有重來的機會我一定會不顧一切保護你愛著你。我真的不想再傷害你。

你說我是雙面人可是你不知道，我並沒有和他有什麼關係。那一天，那一夜他祇是故意想氣你，他只是在炫耀自己沒有的東西想讓你妒忌讓你吃醋。你可知道，當一個人在炫耀自己有什麼的時候就是失去什麼的時候。然後呢？過後的幾封信息都是他發的。他會發那幾封信息祇想要挽回你因為他知道他自己做錯事了，他將那美好的感情給毀了。我會知道這些是因為事後跟他聊起話來的時候聽到的。但我也有錯，如果沒有喜歡他一切就不會來不及。你罵我，我不還嘴就因為想讓你消氣、想讓時間平靜了猜想你解釋但我想現在已經沒那個機會了。我知道你不會在意我了，我知道你也不會再來看這部落了，我知道你心裡或許真的沒有我了、因為你也把我給block了。我很在意，你有想過當你罵我的時候我的感受是什麼嗎？你有想過當你罵了我過後我依然會是那個愛發小姐脾氣大罵一頓然後偷偷流淚過後又大哭了嗎？你有想過你那些話其實很傷人嗎？我錯、但不至於雙面人吧？我明明就是愛你的啊! 祇是我不夠努力而已嘛!! 本來我和她已經沒什麼聯絡了，就是因為你遇見了 ＂她＂ 我才找回他和他說你已經喜歡了別人。在那些時候他祇是安慰我也讓我傻傻地陷入一個錯覺。那段曖昧的日子很難受卻有點甜。他依然是你口裡的＂爛人＂，依然是對我大小聲，依然把我當成小俑女 可那一夜他告訴我他的夢想 也拒絕了我這些年對他的喜歡。知道了他的心聲，我決定不再和他有任何曖昧關係只能是純粹朋友。但是你依然不相信我。"but she is not mine"這就是我把它寫出來的意思。我的表達能力差還是你不明白我的用意？

當我發現到你把所有我們的東西刪除了心裡很痛因為你不在的時候他們就是我的寶貝你給我的一切我一直都很珍惜。當我發現的時候我有很生氣你的感覺又開始想罵你卻又不忍心。我真的很想好好的對待你，真的很想做一個疼你的女孩，完成我們的承諾。可是我卻不敢想像未來、我們已經分開了。這一次我們都離對方很遠了可是我還是很自私，自私的想把你留著自私的想不讓別的女生靠近你擁有你。我缺不想纏著你祇因為怕你嫌我煩怕你討厭我然後讓我滾，所以你離開的這些日子我不敢去找你也不敢對你說出思念的話。

羅佳欣我愛你。不是因為你對我好而已
我愛你是因為 I just wanna be with you the rest of my life ..
我好想對你說我要我們在一起 可是我沒那個勇氣
愛一個人為什麼那麼辛苦？愛一個人為什麼就不能好好的在一起？

First Love

你给我的感觉就像初恋 ♥

知道你的决定过后心里很不好过 , 一直以来在你眼里我就是那样的 .

但是我不后悔爱过你 , 不后悔承受之前所有的不好 , 一点都不后悔 .

你给我的感觉像是初恋 , 真的很温暖 .. 可是有初恋就会有失恋 ..

两 三 年前是如此 两三年后也是如此 . 越来越害怕 .. 

记得起初的承诺 ? 记得之前的约定 ?

可能我的脸皮真得很厚 , 一直很没有脸得把你挽留 .. 

今天收到你今早拿来的东西心里真的很想哭 , 但是我知道 . 

在这期间我不能哭 , 该勇敢 , 学习微笑 假装开心 面对考试

放心吧 , 我不会再傻下去了 . 以前的我已经不见了

以前 , 我真的会伤害自己 但是 如今我知道痛的不是身体是心 

就算怎么折磨自己 也不如心痛

我真的错了 , 我不应该认真 ..

我真的不知道结果会是这样 .. 我真的没有想过 ..

我也说过 , 我只是喜欢他 .. 你昨晚也那样对我说 ..

对不起 , 一直困扰你 .. 现在想告诉你 , 我放手吧 ..

即使再怎么舍不得你 , 再怎么想念你 , 再怎么爱你 .. 我也不想那么自私 再伤你 .

我说过 , 我不会再伤你的 , 但是我没想过 , 他才那一次来过你就会火大成这样 .. 

对不起 。

有缘的话 , 从新认识从新再爱 :)

BELIEVE IT , 这次到我追你 ♥

可能两三年后 , 二三十年后吧 ?

有缘 , 再见。

很想挽回 , 却知道自己不好 , 也知道 我应该来不及了吧 ?

可能我不应该被你爱 .